Archive for March, 2011

Depression Sucks, Did You Know?

Saturday, March 5th, 2011

I haven’t talked about it much, on this blog or elsewhere, but I’ve been having problems with depression for a while now.  If you know me and you haven’t heard me say anything about it, don’t feel bad; I’ve tried to keep it fairly under wraps.  And, yeah, that doesn’t really work very well, who knew?

I don’t really like to talk about negative stuff unless I can talk about it in the past sense.  This is part of why this blog has been so sparse lately; between my general tendency to not want to say negative things, and my depressed tendency to consider everything in the most negative possible light, the poor thing didn’t stand a chance.  And let’s not forget my depressed tendency to say, “Ooh, look at that thing I’ve been meaning to do!  It stresses me out too much to think about doing it now, so I’ll just stress out about it not being done.”

This is also the main reason Derelict isn’t finished.

The main point of this post is that I’m working on it.  I’m tired of not talking about how crappy I feel, and I’m working on getting some therapy rolling.  I wouldn’t expect a whole heck of a lot of talk about it on the blog; historically, I’ve tried to keep this a pretty positive place, and besides this is a fairly personal topic.  But hey, you never know.  I mean, it has a tag now and everything, right?  Because my tagging habits are highly consistent and not at all schizophrenic.

Current Music: Daughtry, Over You, via Pandora.  I love this song.  It really takes me back to my time in Little Rock, especially that first year of college, when this was one of the songs that was always popping up on the radio when Kat and I were hanging out with one of our friends.

Er, and now Happy Together by The Turtles, because Pandora has a sense of irony on multiple levels?

On the Abolition of Free Time

Friday, March 4th, 2011

I’ve been doing a pretty fair bit of gaming lately.  Mostly computer gaming, but a bit of Zosias too.  It feels like a lot, but the truth is I’m gaming less than I had been; I’ve basically dropped out of World of Warcraft for the time being, and that game is the sort of time sink where you don’t even realize you’re losing time until you’ve been performing some mind-numbing task for eight hours.  It’s . . . kind of like a job, really, and I just haven’t been in the mood for it lately.  I have been playing a fair amount of Minecraft, but now it’s Minecraft and splotches of other games, not Minecraft and WoW.  Those two are a lethal combination.

I’ve been keeping an eye on the Steam specials, and earlier this week Braid went on sale for about $3.  Well, 2d platformers are the secret love of my heart, and I’ve been wanting to try Braid for awhile, so I snapped it up.  It’s not very long — I finished it earlier today (well, yesterday by the time you read this) and it only took me about 5 hours total.  That was with a fair amount of faffing around and a couple of puzzles that really burnt my brain out, but had I cut that I probably would still have needed . . . four, four and a half hours?  I’m bad at estimating time.

Braid was a real breath of fresh air.  This isn’t to say I’ve been playing a lot of bad games lately — quite the opposite — but I don’t remember the last time I ran across a 2d platformer that delighted me this much.  Well, that’s a lie; it was probably Cave Story; but as much as I like Cave Story, it’s really a very different type of game.  Cave Story is Metroidvania; Braid is a puzzle game.  I’m tempted to compare it to The Lost Vikings, but other than them both being 2d platformer puzzle games, they’re not very much alike.

I feel that I should clarify that.  Both are 2d platformer puzzle games, but they have very different types of puzzles.  And very different tones.

In short: Braid was excellent.  Even having solved the puzzles, it’s worth playing again at least a couple of times, which is more than I can say for a lot of puzzle games.  The story was excellent, and it didn’t intrude on the gameplay like so many do.  It had one of the best finales I’ve seen in any game, ever.

Actually, I’m going to take a moment and talk about the finale.  No spoilers, I promise, though that does make it a bit harder to talk about.

There’ve been a lot of people around saying that games can’t be art lately (if by “lately” we mean “in the last few years”).  This is an old and worn-out debate, in Internet time, and I’m not going to get too far into it.  They’re entitled to their opinion.  But if you’re one of the folks with that opinion, and you’re at all amenable to being swayed, I humbly recommend that you play Braid.  Don’t stop in the middle somewhere when you can’t get to one of the bloody puzzle pieces, though you will probably get quite frustrated a couple of times.  Finish the game.  Play through the finale.  Maybe it won’t change your mind, maybe it will, but for me?  That’s the very definition of games-as-art.  That finale wouldn’t have worked nearly as well without the game mechanic that the game is built around.  It could have been done in another form, in much the same way that a good book can be turned into a good movie — but, just as with any conversion between art forms, it would have had to have been done much differently.  I don’t know that the impact could have carried over as well.  Because in games, it’s not about what you see done — it’s about what you do.

So: five hours of damn good entertainment, lots of great puzzles, and the best and most artistic finale I’ve ever seen in a video game.  That’s $3 well-spent.  I’d recommend it to anyone for that price.  The usual $10 tag is a bit higher than I’ll usually go on a lark, but I’ll say that I’ve gone to the movies and spent $10 on two hours of relative misery before, and this is a way better deal.

Current Music: Guns & Roses, Welcome to the Jungle, and then Linkin Park’s What I’ve Done, via Pandora.  Both songs that I enjoy a great deal.

It’s my favorite type of song, too.

Thursday, March 3rd, 2011

[Int., night.  Stairway to Heaven is playing in the background.]

Me: Whatever happened to the rock ballad?

Kat: I think it died when rap came in.  Rap shot it in the face.

Me: I think you mean, “Rap capped it in the ass.”

March Forth

Thursday, March 3rd, 2011

Holy snap, I just realized that tomorrow is GM’s Day!

. . . does anyone else still celebrate that?  It was a pretty fancy marketing thing by a bunch of game companies a few years ago?  I always try to remember GM’s day and at least make my gaming group aware of it.  Maybe I’ll run a bonus session of some sort tomorrow.  Or this weekend, I have a dinner to go to tomorrow . . .

Current Music: Dixie Chicks.  Don’t judge.

Nooks Are Awesome

Thursday, March 3rd, 2011

Kat and I decided to treat ourselves this tax return, and got ourselves both Nooks.  We agree that this was a really good idea, a huge quality of life improvement, and generally pretty nifty.  I led the way, and after a couple of days she ended up getting one too — because while I expected to like my Nook, I didn’t expect to like it nearly as much as I did.  Surprise, I guess.

Of course, the first thing I did was visit the Baen Free Library and Project Gutenberg.  Kat also ran across Feedbooks, which is pretty neat, but the open-source public domain selection seems quite a bit smaller than Gutenberg’s.  The Feedbooks ones might be a bit higher quality (as much as that matters in ebooks) and Feedbooks had The Great Gatsby, which I didn’t find on Gutenberg, but all things considered I prefer Gutenberg for my public-domain works.

Of course, the first thing I noticed in the Baen Free Library was that it contained 1632 and 1633, which I had just recently bought in physical form.  Which is fantastic; they’re both great books, I’m delighted to be able to carry them around on my Nook, and I don’t mind supporting the author a bit.  Still, if I’d known, I would have picked up 1634: The Galileo Affair and 1635: The Cannon Law instead.  Drat.

I also scored almost the entire Honor Harrington series, by virtue of running across a copy of War of Honor that came with a CD with the entire series to that point on it.  This made me rather explicably happy, though I haven’t got around to the series yet.  I mean, I haven’t even cracked open Towers of Midnight, which I got for Christmas, yet.  This is mainly because I want to do a full reread of The Wheel of Time this time around — I didn’t when A Gathering Storm came out, and while I got along well enough it’s been a few more years now.  I also have The Way of Kings, which, again, I’m looking forward to but I want to get some smaller stuff out of the way before I jump in.

Of course, at the moment “smaller stuff” is The Wise Man’s Fear.  When I found out I could preorder it on my nook and have it in my hands pretty much the instant it came out, I pretty much had to do so.  The Name of the Wind is my favorite fantasy book since . . . well, since Tolkien, probably.  No, actually, I like it more than Tolkien.  This probably owes itself to the fact that I was pretty well steeped in post-Tolkien fantasy by the time I got around to reading The Lord of the Rings.  You know that guilty feeling when you read (or watch, or hear) something classic and it feels derivative, but you know it’s actually the original and all the stuff you read before is derivative of it, but you still can’t quite like it as much as you feel like you should?  I have that with Tolkien.  It’s kind of sad, actually.  I feel like someone’s going to kick in the door and revoke my geek credentials.

Regardless, I got The Wise Man’s Fear on my nook, and also The Name of the Wind since I gave my first copy to my mom a year or so ago.  (No regrets on either count; I like having it on my nook, I’m happy to throw a little more money Rothfuss’s way, and that book deserves to be shared.)  I finished reading The Name of the Wind at 2 AM on the 1st, so I couldn’t really have timed it much better if I’d tried (which I did, to be fair (am I a parentheses addict?)).

Of course, it’s the 3rd now and I’m . . . well, I was going to say “only X pages in,” but X=413 so I’ll just shut my trap.  Yeah, I haven’t gotten quite as much reading done on it as I could have, but let’s face it, I have a lot more time right now than most people.  Which is rather nifty.

Well, I’ve rambled enough for now.  I’m going to get a bit of writing done, if my muse will cooperate.

Current music: My primary Pandora station, via a Chrome extension.  Current song is . . . The Taste of Ink, by The Used.  I think I preferred the Creedence Clearwater that was just on, but then Down On the Corner is a hard act to follow.